Hello everyone,
I know we haven't update this page since the 15th. I do apologize. There just wasn't any change in anything. As they say, "No news is good news!" I've had one treatment since I had the reaction. That one went well because I didn't get the drug that caused the reaction. Now this coming Thursday, the 17th, I will start another cycle. I'll see Dr. Cunningham first, and we'll talk about the change they'll make in my treatment. But we've (Pastor and I) heard that they'll go with just the drug called gemsar.
I have some anxiety about Thursday's appointment. I always do when meeting with the doctors. I know that God is in control, and it shouldn't make a difference what news they have, but this is where my faith is being tested the hardest. I really do feel the strain of the test. I told a friend awhile ago that it was easier to pray that God have His way with my life at a time when I truly believed that I would be healed. That was before the most recent surgery, and being told that I had a limited time, and TPN instead of food, etc. Now I struggle at times, with the thought that His way may not be the way that I thought. Like I said this is the ultimate test of my faith. But then Philippians 2:13 comes to mind:
For it is God which worketh in you both to will and to do of his good pleasure.
Praise the Lord that we don't need to pull it together ourselves to do what He has planned for us. Neither do we have to struggle with our "want to" as we're doing His will. Because it is He that not only helps us to do His will, but also helps us to want to do it. I remember when the Lord wanted me to work with the deaf. I couldn't see myself in front of the auditorium signing. It just wasn't my thing to do anything in front of anyone! But as I submitted to His request He made me want to do it. As a result I completely enjoyed those years of interpreting and teaching the deaf in Sunday School.
So I said all that to ask this: please pray that I don't fret this whole week what my doctor will say, but that I can rest in His love and grace, knowing that He does all things well. And pray that Dr. Cunningham will be moved to do His will with the necessary knowledge.
Thanks again for all your love and prayers. Please continue!!
Love,
Denise
Thank you for this testimony. It happens to be a principle that has been popping up in youth group as of late: choosing to serve God and give Him control, no matter what He chooses to do.
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Denise, you are in my thoughts and prayers. One Wednesday evening we had a message on praying without doubt. God does have the ultimate plan for our lives. But after this message I heard, I felt who was I to pray for something and still have doubt in my mind.By the grace of God, my faith grew in leaps and bounds that night! I pray the Lord comforts you this week as only He can do!
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Patti
Thank you for the update. May the Lord be with you and guard your heart from fear.
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Your brother in Jesus Christ
Jay
Denise, you are so right. Our emotions easy take the place of our faith sometimes...guess that is what makes us human. How quickly we forget that God has it all worked out for us ahead of time. I will pray that God gives you peace as you talk with the doctors on Thursday. (I too would struggle with anxiety.) So glad we have the Lord to lean on in tough times. Love, Karen Calhoun
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