Tuesday, April 19th

Hello everyone,
Praise the Lord for another day!  I am doing good today. I seem to have more energy this morning than I've had in the past week or so.  The infected area is still there, on hold, and not doing much, but it's not sore. Later today I will go for the C125-blood work.  I'm not as nervous as in times past, and I'm sure that is because of your prayers.  Thanks!
This is a neat turn of events - I ran out of my pain medicine due to a slow mail system.  My prescription did not arrive on time for me to be able to change the patch on Sunday as scheduled.  But contrary to times in the past, I did not get any pain on Sunday, and not even until Monday night! And then it was just dull, not the jabbing pain that I expected.  That excited me.  Thanks Lord! 

I won't lie and say this all has been an easy and sweet walk with the Lord.  As time goes on I find myself wondering, even doubting that I will be healed. And of course that can cause some troublesome times.
 However, my heart was touched a few days ago when I read John 12:27,28. Jesus had just entered Jerusalem with all the fanfare of palm branches, and hosannas.  Despite that Jesus said, "Now is my soul troubled; and what shall I say?  Father, save me from this hour: but for this cause came I unto this hour."  It  struck me that Jesus Himself was troubled, He struggled with what the Father wanted Him to do.  He looked at the week ahead of Him and knew it was going to be hard, and even more so He knew the end of it all.  He was going to face the pain and tiredness and humiliation of the crucifixtion, but mostly He knew that His loving Father was going to turn His back of Him as He hung on that cross dying for our sins. Yet, He said in verse 28, "Father, glorify thy name."    Despite it all His goal, His purpose, was that His Father would get the glory. It also struck me that He knows exactly how I feel. (Hebrews 4:15)  When I think I've had enough, or when I start to get anxious and fearful of what is ahead, He knows. And He knows exactly what I need as  a  human to see me through and comfort me; all because He has experienced it Himself. Thank you Lord!

Thanks for your prayers.  My requests would be that the C125 goes down, that this infected area goes away. That the Lord is glorified.

With much love and appreciation,
Denise